Quote: I don’t like to be given the responsibility of being ignored.
You can say miss me now. hearts me later. then you’ll be gone again. You will say you need my presence. Needed my voice. but then you would disappear again. This sounds so cliche that I’m sick of waiting to be ignored at times. When I really put my heart and soul to the person, something will always fucked up. I even started to pray to put all those bullshit just to mean you stay. This “waiting/ignored” cycle has been going on for the past 21 years of my life and I’m really feel desperate for someone to be really there for me at times.
Lonely. Yeah. Sometimes. I need to make it a habit to be my best friend. So I won’t feel the suffer and pain. I’m sadist at times. Harsh bitter reality just to keep myself awake in this world. Learning from every mistake that i get into. Learning humans behavior. Dejavu.
Honestly, I swear. I swear. I’m a good friend to be. But not a good lover. Just didn’t have the enough time to acknowledge myself more.
P.s: I can only post on weekends. due to NS. -__-“